Don't

WE humans do make mistake.
We learnt.
We dont repeat.

I used to love a very special lady in ma life.
But it seems that she never believe or know that the love i had for her, is true
and really wanted to be there for her.
Being training during NS, being there for her physically most of the time, is not easy.
Unless, if a girl really understand what her lover is going through. (i tell u it's rare)
It isnt easy.

It's a pity we broke up, right after my training phase is over.
I do think bout her all the time.
It just doesnt seem feel right, because i still love her.
When i was told about what i did and listening to others without even giving her a chance to explain, i woke up.
The reason i still contact with her for two months.
To give things a chance for both of us to reconcile.


hmm..oh yes..
I didnt meant to confess to her friend that way.
Yes. I do admire.
But it doesnt come to feelings.
I guess.. I was getting into something to say things to the friend.


Months come and go.
I had fun.
She is happy in your life.
But, once in a while..
I still think of her.
it.. just came..
Whenever i go to places that we planted our feets before, her beautiful eyes and smile just pop into my mind.
Her body shape. From her hair to her ass to her toes..
dang..
just ..Wow!

just like yesterday..
After got back from the modelling agency, i get down near novena mrt, saw Tan Tock Seng Hospital..
When into Novena Square.
Remembered the favourite chocolate donut she chewed on
Walk past Burger King. Remembered the corner we sat, where we were enjoying the late dinner we had. After we visit her mum who was hospitalised.
To be precise, after i accompany her to visit her mum..
In her beautiful-looking nurse uniform..


I talk to u again recently..
u should understand that,
I am just being me.
To be there for someone.
u know.
I need to correct u, i wasnt hoping for anything.
I was just there.. For you..
To pass your time, your boredom..
On the other hand, u help me in spending my time away from boredom.
that's it.
i understand ur sudden disappearance and silence.
You got stuff to do.
It's kinda worrying, like wat really happen to u..

These are the recipes in a part of the chapters in our life.
There's more only for us to know.
I'm gonna lock this chapters of our life somewhere safe, for us to ponder during our time
together.
Our chapters of our life together, has ended.
The book, is complete.

I wish you all the best in your life.
You are the one whom i used to love.
And thank you for the memories.
I wish u all the best again!

I had enough of trying to make things right.
I know it doesnt work.

WIthin, insya'allah, two months end of June, i end my service soon.
Someone, is slowly crawling into me.
Although i doesnt expect it much, but I just want to be there for her, better still, better than what i had went through before.
I have many plans to look forward to in life.
She work hard for the performance, i hope i can make it this Saturday.
Just waiting for The word 'GO' from sir.
Or else *i gonna shoot myself*. hoho.

but seriously, we looking for it.
I wanna watch her.
She work hard.
I want her to be happy.
She went through lots.
I wanna do my part to make her happy.
Coz she make me happy for being there.. even though with my busy schedule..
At least, she can be a trusty close friend. =p

I wanna be there.


A.B Kin




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Your knees going weak.
You feel like you just wanna go down.
But, you better don't.
You never will.
I'll grab both your hands.
And pull you up on both feet.
I will ensure you stand and walk with both.
You won't go down,
while i'm still breathing.

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