25 September 2008

I did a very big mistake...
Not really a mistake but i purposedly did it...
But i guess it was too much for her.
I regretted it...

I just don't want to see that because of me,
the friendship of both of you, disperse just like tat..
I am not that bad to do that.
That is not my intention.
I am sure things will be back to normal or better.

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Bukankah benar kata kataku dahulu tentang si dia?
Aku seorang lelaki.
Aku dapat baca seseorang lelaki itu.
Niat dia ingin bersama denganmu adakah baik atau jahat.
Bukankah aku pernah bilang kepada kau sperti mana ia berlaku dahulu tentang 'rakan baik mu'.
Aku dapat rasa jikalau dia berniat baik atau pun jahat.
Tetapi kau buat endah nasihat ku.

Mmg susah hendak mempercayai nasihat ku kerna padamu, aku cemburu.
Padamu, aku ingin mengawal hidupmu.
Bukankah aku sudah terangkan kepada kau, aku sayangi mu.
Aku tidak mahu kau dipedaya oleh jantan di luar sana.
Walaupun engkau tidak bersamamu, aku hanya mau kebahagianmu.

Sekarang,
bukan kah kata kataku semua benar?
dia ialah seseorang yg dlm keadaan seperti mu.
Baru putus cinta, mencari seseorang untuk melupakan peristiwa yg pahit yg dialami.
Mengapa kau tidak percaya kata kataku?
Aku bukan hendak menhancurkan mu tetapi aku ingin menyelamatkan mu.

Walaupun aku masih sayangi dirimu, aku tabahkan hati kerana akuhendak lihat akn kau lebih bahagia dngn org lain ataupun tidak.
Kau pilih si dia walaupun kau masih lum kenal dengan dia dngn lanjut.
Bila aku rasa sesuatu tak kena, aku bilang padamu, tetapi sudah terlmbt.
Skrng hati kau hancur.
Kenapa kau benarkan dirimu dipermainkan.

Aku memahami perasaan mu.
Aku akan berada disismu walaupun aku tidak dipandang skalipun.
Kau ingin meluahkan perasaanmu, jgn segan silu lepaskan kepadaku.
Talian aku terbuka bila2 masa sahaja.

Aku doakan supaya hati kau tenang kembali.
Akn aku cuba berada disisimu bila2 masa skali pun.
Memang aku tidak menyuruh kau mempercayai kata2 ku
Kata kata hanya manisan mulut.
Perjanjian boleh digugurkan.
Perbuatan, hanya buktinya .


A Bakar

21 September 2008

21st of every month.
...
hmmm..
...
History...


Fitnah.
Boleh menghancurkan semua dngn sekelip mata sahaja.
Fitnah.
Begitu kuat skali kuasanya.
Jangan biarkan Fitnah menguasai hidup.
Pabila dikuasai Fitnah, kita hilang kawalan hidup, hilang kawalan diri.

Adakah aku harus hidup dengan Fitnah?
Adakah aku harus biarkan Fitnah menghancurkn hidupku?
Mengapa Fitnah boleh mengubah seseorang itu?
Fitnah boleh mengubah seseorang itu dengan sekelip mata sahaja.
Begitu kuat skali kuasa Fitnah terhadap Manusia.

Mengapa Fitnah tetap menghantui hidupku?
Disebabkan Fitnah, ia menghancurkan hidup ku bersamanya.
Hingga kini, Fitnah masih menghantui ku.
Fitnah telah membuatnya kurang percayai terhadap diriku.
Fitnah telah mengubah pandangannya terhadap diriku.

Aku sudah mencuba segalanya untuk membuatnya menukar fikirannya terhadap diriku.
Tetapi, aku tetap dihantui Fitnah darinya.
Fitnah telah membutakan seseorang itu dengan apa yg baik telah aku lakukan selama aku bersamanya.
Aku menyesal dengan kata kataku dahulu.
Aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk dia mengubah pandangannya terhadap diriku.
Tetapi, Fitnah menguasai segalanya.
Dengan Fitnah, perkara lama yang aku cuba lupakan menghantui hidupku sekali lagi.

Haruskah aku berbaik baik terhadap nya?
Dengan Fitnah bersembunyi di antara kami, adakah berhasil supaya kami berdua berbaik2 semula?
Aku tidak akan berputus asa.
Fitnah itu musuhku dari dulu lagi.
Fitnah menghantui hidup ku lagi.

Kepada seseorang itu yang membuat Fitnah di antara kami,
adakah harus kau mati di tangan ku?
Tetapi aku bukan seseorang yang pendendam.
LAgipun,kami hidup di dunia dengan adanya undang2.
Aku juga tahu terhadap dosa dan pahala.
Jikalau betul kau memfitnah diriku atau dirinya,
kau akan tahu diri kau sendiri balasannya.

Kau telah menghancurkan talian kami berdua.
Kau telah menghancurkan hubungan kami berdua.
MEngapa org seperti kau harus hidup?
Kau masih mentah lagi.
Kau tidak tahu bagaimana perasaan org lain.
Kau hanya tahu terhadap perasaan kau sahaja.
KAu hanya ingin sesuatu untuk memuaskan diri kau, tidak memikir tentang perasaan org lain.
Kenapa kau boleh timbul dalam hidupnya?
Kau boleh kami anggap sebagai adik kami sendiri.
TEtapi berbuatan kau menghancurkan perasaan orang lain.
Kenapa aku tidak tahu pada mulanya kau hanya seorang budak mentah yang pandai menarik hati orag lain?
Pandai pula kau dengan fitnah2 yang kau luahkan.
Entah betul ke tidak kau yg memfitnah diriku, aku tidak tau.

Aku tidak akan lupa dengan apa yang kau buat terhadap hidup aku dan dia.
Aku harap aku tidak akan dngr tentang diri kau atau timbul di dalam hidup aku.
Sebelum perkara yg tidak baik berlaku.






Mungkin kah ada peluang lagi untuk kami bersama seperti dahulu sekali lagi?
MAsihkah dia memarahi terhadapku?
Masihkah dia ada perasaan terhadap aku?



Burn






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18 September 2008

I am exhausted..
After a date with a friend,I went back to camp..
Nxt day, off day, i went home coz my back is killing me and i dun feel so goood...
Feverish, headache,coughing, nose leaking.
Take my medicine and have a rest at home.
Then report back to camp.

Today, was another half day.
Quickly reach home, took a shower and mit up with a friend of mine for a break fast together.
I tot i was late and she was early...
But nah..We agree on the same timing and met up exactly at the same time.
haha..
Took a short walk to the Causeway Point and I got the feeling she is too used to that place already.
I asked her whether we should go someplace else and she agreed.
I tot of going to Northpoint.
But nah.
I was told, it is under renovation.
Okay.
Listened to the North-side people.
=D
In the end, we went to AMK Hub for our break fast later that evening.

The first moment we met, she is kinda shy but finally she opened up and we were talking like we are old friends.
haha..
Laughing and joking non-stop.
I admit, i am kinda nervous but i counter it by talking to her.
When i look at her and she appear nervous, i dun feel nervous anymore.
haha..
But tat was the first half an hour.
By then we were talking, joking and laughing.
Yea.
I'm ur clown.
beh heh heh.
Anyway it was my first time at AMK Hub.
Quite interesting...
hoho...
We went for window shopping...

The best outing u can get to know someone(your date) more is by window shopping. Or do some other kind of activities where u can interact with each other.
Instead of going to the movies for ur first date, where u waste two precious hours to get to know someone, why not spend time together interacting with each other.
You will get the benefit of knowing someone better in the process.While he/she on the other hand will also know much more better about you.

Do i look like a 15 year old boy?
wo...
So u are going out with a little brother..
And i am going out with an elder sister..
haha..
no no..
Just a joke.. =D

to cut the story short, after the day we spent, I sent her home.
To ensure she reach home safely.
If not, I am responsible...
Cheh!
Coincidentally, she lived nearby one of my ol buddy's home.
Although she asked me whether i may get lost, I told her I don't.
Fortunately, the road nearby is familiar to me.
So I was off back to the mrt station in no time...
HAha..

Right now, i believe she is sleeping...
First time~~!
Usually she is a nite owl.
But this time i think she is exhausted with the earlier activity,
and there she goes to lalaland.
haha..
Amazing!
But true!
haha..
I gotta go back camp again tomorrow..
Dang..
Why must be me again everytime when there is a leave given to the rest of the company?
Nvrmind.
I am just doing my job.

Happy Surfing!

Burn




p.s.s And to someone- dun you worry that i will not message or call u again. You have to give me some space. I will return your msg or call u like i always do someday. Don't think things u shouldn't.
Take care!

14 September 2008

Something i am working on..
Here is some sample or test i made.

Wix.com

13 September 2008

MAgnum Ice-cream
The taste is splendid.
High class taste no ice-cream I tasted before taste the same as Magnum Classic.
A classic taste. =)

Wrapped in its package

Not knowing what surprises it will reveal

So tempting. . .

PAckage unwrapped!!

My gosh! Look at that!

OO!!.. The thick looking thing.

Very shapely.. .FReaking thick!

What it contains inside must be very goooood. . .

Magnum CLassiC

haha...
You should Try it out!

Happy Surfing!

Will update soon!

Burn

p.s ***9th August entry updated***

How to download and change format of your videos

I've been getting some questions from my buddies about downloading videos from YouTube and then playback them in their own mp4 players.
I'm no tech geek but here I present you the easiest way
to do it.
Any kind of videos you download from YouTube or the internet flash player,
you wanna playback them in your mp4 player but in the end you can't.
Coz why?
The video you want to play is in the wrong format.
For example, when you download videos from YouTube,
it is in flash player format. (eg. video.flv)
When you want to play them in mp4 player, you need a mp4a format.(video.mp4)

Anyway, let's get on with it.
To download videos from YouTube, you need a program like Downloadhelper.net
If you are using Mozilla Firefox, it will be easy for you to search them in Addons.
Get Downloadhelper to assist you in downloading flash videos from website such as YouTube.
Now you can download your flash videos to the format you want such as avi so that you can playback them in Windows Media Player or RealPlayer.

Anyway, if you wanna playback your downloaded flash videos, you can watch them with Applian FLV Player 2.0, the easiest player I've been using so far. Others don't work well. But this is the best I've been using.

And, yes. Lastly. You want to convert your avi videos to mp4 format, wma, mpg,mpeg etc.
This program allow you to convert them in any format you want with ease.
This is a free version.If you wanna convert into dvd format, you need to purchase another version of it.
I guess you have heard before 'Any Video Converter'?
This is the program that can assist you in converting any video format to your choices.
Download the program here.

Enjoy watching your videos in your mp4 player!

Happy Surfing!

Burn

11 September 2008

This song,
I dedicate this to someone(if you ever comes by):


Kepda seseorang itu:

Aku sudah lama maafkan kesalahanmu yg kau buat dahulu. Aku juga sedar bahawa diriku telah membuat kesalahan padamu. Kesalahan yg tidak pernah ku berniat hendak melakukan terhadap seseorang sepertimu.Kesalahan yg tidak pernah ku buat selama aku bersamamu.Kau dan aku sudah memahami bahawa kita berdua sudah kehaluan masing2 dan aku pasti bahawa hidupmu lebih bahagia daripada kau dngn aku dahulu.Andainya satu hari nanti, kau bersedia untuk berkata dengan aku apa masalah yg kau simpan selama ini, sila berdepan dengan aku. Aku bersedia mendengarnya.

A.B.M

Post been edited.

05 September 2008

My last post,
thrown out of the window.
...
I'm moving on with the new life I am in.
Penat ah pikir2...
Bile kite concern kat org, org ckp kite harass..
Report police lah, tu lah ni lah..
Report governement?
New paper?
tak pun president?

I shouldn't bother her.
I have my new life.
Thanks to one of my friends.
I get to know new friends now.
I have to turn my life all over again, for the better.
beh heh heh..

Don't eVEr play
With electricity.. Or even Lightning...

Haha..

Last 2 days, I and one of my man, nearly kena struck by lightning.
Seriously.
It was stormy weather.
Luckily we were under a roof, a small booth.
I can still hear that ringing tingling sound in my ear.
My man, on the other hand saw the current flowing through one the appliances in that booth right in front of him.
haha..
We were kinda shaken but we were ok. We are still alive. alhamdulilah!
It was just a small booth we were in.
Luckily i was not out there outside.
The only problem we face is, we lost power.
Hoho..

Get back to more updates soon!
Happy Surfing!
Burn