Thoughts Aloud

Can i laugh?
hhaaha..
of course i can la..
Wat for ask u?
heheh..

nah..
just sitting down relaxing, thoughts came to my mind..
I laugh silently to myself.
I got nothing to do for the moment, i type in..
=D

this thoughts suddenly came to my mind.
What the hell i was thinking at that time?
when i think about it, i can't stop smiling/ sniggering...

I self-confess something to a someone, a friend of someone used to be closed with to be precise, which i know wasnt really coming out from my heart.
It wasn't near the truth but i just tell off like that like it was nothing.
And when that happen, people reacted to it..
Of ocurse they do.
Of course they will react..

What was i thinking at that time?
when i keep that thoughts rolling in my mind, people reacted to what i've said as if i was telling them 'truth' from what i feel.
Oh man.
It wasn't near the truth.
I think my mind during that period of time, was just trying to make someone i used to be close with, to react to what i did/say..
My mind was like unstable, not in the correct mindset to think properly after all that had happened..
I'm not crazy.. haha..

Sometimes we never think properly wat we are going to do, until we realise that, '
'hey! what was i doing?'
'why i did that?'
'what was i thinking?'
Thoughts that came to ur mind.

And we know we don't have that intention in the mind or inside us, but we did it because we want to achieve or get something we will be satisfied to see.

She did react though, even the friend.
hahaha..
Damn..

that thought rolling into my mind, make me smile.
What utterly rubbish was i doing?
there is no intention or real feeling but i said it, or express it, just to see reactions.
What rubbish...
haha..
tsk tsk..

Abu Abu..

Anyway, sometimes, things happened, for a great reason.
I am thankful for that..
Coz Something great, is coming up...

*wink*

Firefox Web Browser..
Not so bad after all..
With many add-ons i can choose to install within my browser..
=)

Some add-ons i used for quite some time and it's great!
-CoolIris
-FoxTab
-WOT (Web Of Trust)
-Fire.fm
-DownThemAll!/dTa one Click!

i've been trying and using CoolIris for quite a long time along with my Firefox web browser.
It's easy to use when u are searhing for images or videos in YouTube.
Allow you to arrange them in rows for easier browsing,in 3D!

CoolIris 1.3 -
Transform your browser into a lightning fast, cinematic way to discover the Web.

FoxTAB - same goes for FoxTab just like CoolIris, but FoxTAB allow you to look at the websites you visiting currently in 3D format.

WOT- Short-form of Website of Trust.
Free Internet Security WOT warns you about risky websites.
It will keep you safe from online scams, identity theft, spyware, spam, viruses and unreliable shopping sites. WOT warns you before you interact with a risky website.
Safe your PC from risky website that install worm codes within their website.

Fire.fm- Just simply said that, u can listen to random hot music while surfing the web. Although u can listen ur own songs from ur own media player, who knows u might get to listen to songs u never heard before and u like it?
Let just say, Fire.fm is a streaming music radio without the ads.
All music.. =D

Check it out and you will understand what i meant. =D
Signing OFF!

Burn MTK

Crunk time

Here i am.
In the office.
Prison break, season 1 n 2 in hand. Drink can in one hand,
Pineapple tarts by my side.
Dodol, on standby.
Handphone, silent mode in da pocket.
Lights low.
Aircon full blast.
Sofa cushion just right.
Ready for some drama action,
Breaking my mindset away from prison-like watching prison break.
Will i last tat long before i may drool?
We'll see..
Join me?
Here we goo...
*play button press*


New Updates

Any previous posts stated the past, Is the Past.

Got nothing to do with me now.
Wat do u expect?
Delete all the posts?
Waste of time.
I rather
Delete my blog.
But i do not need to do that. I have other aspects to achieve n this active blog prove useful n may be useful in time to come.
Do i need to prove of who i am?
There's no need.
Getting to know me through a blog is minimal of getting to know the whole of me. =D
I am who i am n there is no need to prove to anyone.
We just go by the rules normally.
Or if there is rules.
Coz i dont.

Shut down.

HIbernation
Of personal blog commencing soon.
There will be new changes n more surprises coming soon.
Drone bout life is sooo oh boring.
New changes will come

Star Karat

It was a very so Long time i never play
Dang dang dang..

All my skills, my techniques, my moves, etc etc.
So rusty rusty..

The game just now, not so bad..
Although we lost, it was great game though considering our team is made up of players we never played with before..
First time playing together.
I just need to play more matches to boost up my skills and confidence..
Playing as keeper is not so easy, unless i work harder to improve...
Considering my height is not so tall as Lionel Lewis or Van der Sar.


haha..
I consider myself to be the like of Shay Given,
Bogdan Lobont,

Hasan Sunny,
Yoshikatsu Kawaguchi?


haha..
Cheh...

Or

Jérémie Janot,

the famous 'Spider-man' keeper.

He is just 176cm tall but he really can fly

Peter Schmeichel...
My idol. =D

Mi Idol

The Great Dane: Peter Schmeichel

The Spanish Great:Iker Casillas

Searching for the field is so troublesome.
I went into Greenview Secondary from the main gate and in the end we found out, we suppose to enter from the other side to the field directly.
Make a big u-turn and change.
I don't even have time to warm-up.
Just manage to warm-up during the game is played.
Not really a good start.

After the game, wsh-up, change.. Chill for awhile.
Decided to eat dinner.
Hungry bunch of worn and tired weekend soccer players.
haha..
Went to Elias Mall nearby.
Then decided against it, we walked towards the bus-stop to go to Tampines.
Eat, chat, drink happily like wak wak kedai kopi.


Went home a pleased man, and now here i am..
Full..
Only thirsty..
haha..


I'm not here to be remorseful or whatever.
It just tat, something doesn't satisfied me..

Whatever happened before, it happened..
But it doesn't satisfied me why it happened the way it is..
Fights, quarrels till drained out of energy..
Something missing that cause the plug to spark uncontrollably.
Whatever had happened, had happened.
Let it be.

Then came the time when we were in better terms, 'temporarily'.
The girl, mean too much for me to just be friends.
Seriously, it is painful.
The decision i made i feel is better for both parties.
There be no more quarrels, arguments and misunderstanding coz we knew we can't be friends even if we tried before.
It will be painful.
I do not want the other party to be hurt emotionally by me.
She mean too much and it is better i left.
I do not want.
It hurts to hurt someone that u know u loved before.

So now, is there any more unnecessary arguments occurring?
Nope.
Both parties leading happy lifes.
I enjoy my life,
and i believe she do too.
=D
For me, I just want to see her happy..
Seeing her being happy with her guy, is satisfying.
Cume, paham2 jelah.. something happened that i am not happy with, but i chill only..
Don't try again jelah..
Whatever.
That is not the point.

haha.

Tomorrow, duty..
Wow.
Chinese new year u guys chill chill, i be back in camp
takpelah..
just normal duty.
Next month, insya'allah i start attending my driving license probably 2 weeks before march or so.Making money for the sake of getting more income for family...
Not print and chop..
haha..
Insya'allah, after june, i find a job while waiting to be enrol to continue my studies.
Best if i can get myself a car before or by next year.
Cheh..
We need goals to achieve something right?
heheh..
Get a license first tht is the priority.
=D

Enjoy your Chinese New Year holidays!
To all my Chinese friends and neighbours and whoever you are out there clebrating CNY,
I wish you all
Happy Chinese New YEAR!!!

Happy Surfing!
Burn MTK

Unleash my Words

Sometimes, people just don't understand simple sayings.
Just get a life!

Yes.
Although i have nothing to do with her,
I am just irritated with your stubborn-ess.
Told u, don't bother her, don't bother her lah.
U keep messaging her la tu lah ni la..
Beh dah kene maki/sound alik,
'i feel so down' la, 'so sad' la..
Blame her for what she did.

So?
U ask for it what!
I told u again, this and that la..
Eh..
Mapek ah!

Just foget it and go away from her.
Why can't u?
If u her ex or whatever, takpelah jugak.
Ni , perasan..
Apelah kau.

Adik..
Dengar ckp abang.
Jgn ganggu kakak lagi okay..
Jgn jadi bodoh cari pasal.
Nanti diri sendiri kau jugak merana tak tentu pasal..
Beh nnt , sedih, sad, down, complain...
wat for?

U ok or not?
Why u so like tat ah?
Haiyo...

please Get a life!

Mangkok ah budak ni..
Tak habez habez ganggu hidup org..
Takde keje pergi cari keje..
Ko tu pun skolah kan..
BLaja, jgn nak cari matair2 ni sume..
APa pasal?
Gatal sngt?

shessh.

Burn MTK

Secondary Post

Hmm..
Somehow, i feel glad she have good friends around her who can give advices or strength
to stay up.
Hmm..
I'm grateful to tat friend of hers.
Somehow, i feel like saying thanks.
Thank You.

I took back my words to what i told her before.

Anyway, i just hope nobody bother her anymore.
Let her be.
Let her be happy with her life
She focus on her life, i focus on my life..
Let the episodes end tonight.
Our story, came to the end.
I do not want to know or have to do anything with her.
And i just hope, people don't bother her
And Me.

If anyone, who is not happy with me being in contact with her before,
see me, and we talk.
I don't like being threathen.
If u are a man, We Talk.

Good nitez!
=D

Burn MTK

Song No 25 describe how it all happened.
I dedicate the song specially for someone.
Listen and hayatila. =)

My wish?

Hmm..
My wish and i pray to let her go since long time ago?
Wow..

That's nice..
how i wish i did.
But it didn't happen..
wasted...

wasn't it you who want it so much since the last time?
u never say it, but what u did tell me so.
And there..
Your wish is granted.
U been wanting to make me hate u so much didn't you?
there.
please bersyukur.


oh well..
Sometimes, what do they call it.. love is blind..?
aku diam2 tak kacau, jgn kacau aku..
Jantan tu mulakan lak with that message..
and now, she make it telling everyone, it was my fault?

oh well..
so nice of you..
whatever..
let ur links and friends hate me, i don't mind.
Whatever stories u tell them, go ahead girl.


U want to throw vulgarities at me, go ahead.
i am glad to hear them. =)
as far as i know, i refrain myself from talking bitch to u.

hmm..
didn't i told u long time we are through?
u do not need to remind me what i have told u.

N for your boyfriend,
please remind him don't try to create tension.
Tell him, just don't even start.
Warn me, threathen me as he please.
I close one eye.

But he ever lay a hand on me,
tell him to think twice before he want to do it.
don't tell me i never tell you.

I still remember that threat of yours eh boy.
i let it go before , but after that message recently, u remind me again.

"aku cari kau. aku turun tempat kau. kau paham?"

i tell u, go ahead and try.

whatever lah eh..

oh well..
i forget..
she still think it is my fault..
haha..
nice..

haiz..
Unnecessary human specimen disturbance.

kiddies...

Goodbye

Haz - Say Goodbye

(search songs in mypod >> )
***************************************************************************


i dont wanna say goodbye
and i want you to stay by my side

what i'm about to say, you haven't heard before
but i gotta be honest to myself cause i gotta let you go
you think i can be with you, you're a forbidden fruit
and i hate that religion came between us two
i dont wanna lose you, if i had to choose baby
the answer for that, is to be with you
i dont wanna go through, with tryna make it work
but i know that you dont wanna see me getting hurt

we started out meeting each other, once a week
we tried to be friends, but in the end we couldnt be
baby you were so shy, and when you looked into my eyes
i knew you were the one for me, and i had to make you mine

i'm not tryna be selfish, but i feel like i want you all to myself
i can't help it, cause the way you kiss, you know you make me melt
i wanna be more than a friend, baby, love you till the end
dont wanna throw all the beautiful memories away

but now im saying
baby dont leave, baby, i want you to stay
i'll do everything to make it work
but i feel that we need to go our seperate ways
before we end up getting hurt

so how can i follow my heart, to let you go
when my heart chose to be with you
why did we try from the start, if it wasnt right
but now we have to turn the page and say goodbye

feels like i've known you all my life
we're just the same, sometimes you read my mind
i think about you all the time and its killing me inside
when i know, one day you're gonna say goodbye

oh baby, sleeping next to you, feels just like a dream
baby you make me feel so good
you're the most beautiful thing
and i feel like i'm floating in the sea, this feeling is so different to me

i dont wanna leave you but i guess that i need too
cause you're like to me, i'm already stuck
baby, i want you more everyday
so baby stay, baby please dont go away, cause i need you here with me

i'm not tryna be selfish, but i feel like i want you all to myself
i can't help it, cause the way you kiss, you know you make me melt
i wanna be more than a friend, baby, love you till the end
dont wanna throw all the beautiful memories away

but now im saying
baby dont leave, baby, i want you to stay
i'll do everything to make it work
but i feel that we need to go our seperate ways
before we end up getting hurt

so how can i follow my heart, to let you go
when my heart chose to be with you
why did we try from the start, if it wasnt right
but now we have to turn the page and say goodbye

and baby i hate the situation that we're in
girl you know that we belong
you're my lover, my bestfriend
and there's a reason i wrote this song
you're an angel from above, baby girl just be loved

so how can i follow my heart, to let you go
when my heart chose to be with you
why did we try from the start, if it wasnt right
but now we have to turn the page and say goodbye

baby dont leave, baby, i want you to stay
i'll do everything to make it work
but i feel that we need to go our seperate ways
before we end up getting hurt

so how can i follow my heart, to let you go
when my heart chose to be with you
why did we try from the start, if it wasnt right
but now we have to turn the page and say goodbye...

*********************************************************************************


hmm..
Life..
As always...

=)


Pomegranate juice...
hmm..
not bad..
MMMm..
haha..

This Sunday..
Game..
But...
I dont have my boots..
It has been a long time playing soccer except for that full game last two months.
Now, i have no soccer boot..
The boots i borrowed from my brother, terkopak kapak.
Shooot!

And i don't know where i put my keeper gloves..
stock inside the storeroom??
Dang..
Gotta do some searching later??
Dammit...

My working area
haha.















The other PC i stripped down.


Kesian dier bogel...
tsk tsk...










The Hard Drive i use borrowed from the other com temporarily to repair
my lovely PC. =D












Close Up of the messy Wires and the hard drive
















Super magnified deep into the internal of
the PC.
Wires all over, brr...







Searching for sources for repairing..
Pening kepala dok.













Manage to install Linux for the moment
on that day...
The OS works not so bad...





















End!

Happy Surfing!

Burn MTK

Blood

Good afternoon!
Heheh..

Just chilling, decide to write in.

Its funny to know tat others/friends tot that myself being with someone.
Haha.
Goodness sake.
I am single.
For 6 months already.
Haha..
Come on.
Its not a big deal.
What really happen?
Just say it here:
It happened.
End of story.

I didnt realise some soul sounded me of through friendster.
I found out yesterday.
I dont know
What is his motive.
I thought we have agreed not to hear each other again?
But u have broken tat agreement we made boy.
Is that a threat?
Or a joke?

POST DELETED

Aku tak nak besar2 kan perkara ni.
Just small matter.
Kau nak warn warn aku ni sume small matter.

Mapek ah.
Buang masa aku layan budak budak.

But,
I still mark ur words.

I rather advice u to investigate first before u throw everything at me,
miss.
I dun mind ur vulgarities.
I didnt throw vulgar at u.
i don't mind.

Nitez.

21 and 22

Early morning.
Today is 21.
Tomorrow will be 22.
Use to be very2 significant to me.
21.
She knows.
I know.

22.
A special date for a certain someone and also when the day the friendship began.
=)

24.
To be precise,
24th july 2008.
The day that spiral downwards n all began.
I just wonder, one particular incident tat led to everything.
Unbelievable.

But i will overwrite this with a new chapter.

Im in a Love with someone.

Me..

Heheh..

I love myself.
The date, i fall in love with myself.
ahaha.
21.

Siao ah u!
Crazy ah?
Dun talk cock leh.
Nak mampui kau?
Eh. Giler eh?
Kau tebiat kepe?

Wanna add more?
Haha.
Kay kay.
I talk too much cock.
Coz y?
My cock too much reserved energy.
Eheheheh..
Hahaha.

Kay kay.
Obscene.
Excuse me.
My blog anyway.
Cant take it, quickly leave.
Still maintain, stay and read on. =D

I better go and sleep.
Later, i go overboard.
I think im High.
Hahaha.

Sleepy rest.

I'll make sure u be warmth in bed..

How?

By making for u hot choc.

Hug is secondary.
=D


Evening Edition

About my pc, i manage to repair them monday morning.
I didn't expect to repair it within 2 hours.
Haha..
But counting the time i spend to search for relevant sources to help me repahr took 2 days.
But now, i know how..

Just took 2 hours or less, repair my hard disk, n my external hard disk, n my com is good as new.
For now, i just install linux 4 the moment.
Didnt really have time to test that monday, but it look interesting.
Haha..
Cool.
Wen i book in tomorrow insya'allah, im gona test the os..
Then install windows..
Hoho..

I might start my service soon.
Cheh.
Got corrupted hard disk, dont waste money buy new one.
It can be repaired very easily.
Ask me.
=D
I don't charge high.
Only transport fees.

Chaoz

Decision

I know, i made the right the decision for someone.
Whole clear picture drawn.
I know the person have been waiting for this opportunity.
Why be a wall for someone to love the person he/she loves to be with?
Right?
*wink*

I ain't inhuman.
I ain't a monster.
But i bite.
haha..

My mind is clear now.
All the best for you shawty.

I no problem.
I'll be back soon like how i am use to be.
When insya'allah ORD coming months time,
I'll be able to spend more quality times like how i used to be with my love ones and with the lucky girl whom be able to captivate my heart.
haha...
Cheh.
Jiwang beb.

This is 2009.
Nxt month, insya'allah take on theory driving test.
Go for audition?
haha...
Try more into model photo-taking?
maybe..
ooo..
First time kekok.
Lama2 mcm gerek.
ooo...
More plans more plans coming!
More more!
*ehem*

saw a long time ol female friend of mind in mrt to bedok yesterday evening. alight at bedok together.
she used to be participating in tv in anugerah with saiful,the winner, and nurul huda and the rest of the gang.
lawa dok dlm tv.
tapi tak sangka, depan mata lagi jambu.
Wow!

didn't know it was her that was looking at me when i was standing up to alight. then,
she popped out of the train in front of me, walking in front.

I did something evil. i just walk past her down the escalator. Took a peek, saw her looking.
i laugh to myself silently.
The next escalator, i purposely slow down. Never climb up the stairs of the escalator but just let it carry me up.
She walked past me.

let her walk in front of me for a distance even though when she might slowed down.
she was merely a few metres in front before i was reaching my berth to wait for my bus.
she slowed down, seems to look right or left for no apparent reason, i think, my opinion anyway.
Then she seems to stop , looking at some shelves at the small provision shop. I was looking at her all the way. Then she seems to look back searching for donnoe what. Caught her eyes again.
but, i make myself to look oblivious of my surroundings.
then saw her, walking slowly away presumbly to her berth.
My bad...
heheh..
*wink*wink*
My ol friend siot.
I act dunnoe.
Dah nmpk mata memandang.
beh aku buat dek.
heheh..
tsk tsk.

very good-looking girl she is.
Dah besar panjang kwn tu.
=D

dah lah.
enough...
penat cite..

Have a great day ahead!



Burn MTK



Jgn pernah sesekali buat perjanjian.
Jikalau perjanjian tu dikau tahu payah ditetapi.
Aku tidak pernah mempercayai perjanjian
Kerna aku sudah tau, perjanjian dibuat akan mati suatu hari nanti.

Busy nite

Using my back up PC right now.
Actually, not really my back up PC to be precise.
I took out the hard drive from there and attached it to my PC.
Kinda messy my table currently. =)

I found out that whenever i attached and use my original hard drive to my computer,
it fails.
I conclude that my hard drive is down and corrupted. It says there is a driver failure anyway.
All my files..
Gone..
tsk tsk..
Pictures, memos, videos...
All of it, gone...

Only memories left in my mind...
AAAAH...

Even my external hard drive faced problems.
Luckily
I have already formatted it.
It is good as new..

BUT!!!
My games... Saved games...
GONE!
Mangkok...
Fish and chips tul.

Next month, get a new hard drive.
waduh..

Anyway, I met a friend of mine just now at simei mrt.
Long time never meet.
heheh..
He is Studying at ite simei.
Wow...

Tomorrow morning meet him again at his school in the morning.
Sending him stuffs.
I send her to school, meet him skali.
Easy rite?
haha..


I wanna continue repairing my PC.
Good nite everyone.
Love you all!

Burn MTK

In camp

Come on.
I'm not using a laptop.
Who the hell wanna bring that in camp?
Siao ah..
Haha.

As per normal, my trusty non-camera sony ericsson mobile useful during this kind of days.
Not using wi-fi though.
Where got such thing here?
Using my opera mini browser for operation.
Through proxy server.

Still feel sian since yesterday.
My lovely pc crashed and i spend hours repairing to no avail.
For the first time, i am helpless.
For the first time both my internal n my external hard disk report back with problem.

U know that irritating blue screen with numbers n problem diagnostic explaination?
Keep popping out!
Even when i was trying to do recovery, it fails!
My external hard disk problem was a disappointent.
It was ok in the first place.
Setting up windows to the hard disk.
Then somehow, boom!
My pc shut down by itself.
This happened lots of time before.
Some ac power problem.
But it has been a long time it nvr happen.
Now!
It happen again at the crucial timing!
Dammit!

When i go back, insya'allah i rectify the problem a.s.a.p.

Luckily, there's my other pc.
It come in handy this time around...

Haiz.
Mcm mane leh rosak?
Eh?
Tangan aku gatal sngt ke?
Gi restart sal nak skip scanning.
Ah kau.
Rasekan kau pisang!

Anyway, i pass by someone blog and this para caught my eyes:
'We tend to take advantage of things.when we need them, we took them and take great care of them.when we dont need them anymore or when they are not important anymore, we tend to throw/put aside and forget bout them.'

Hmm.
Sounds very familiar to me.
Human tendency to be like that?
I dont think so.
For me, in my opinion,
They forget bout it/them because they are not important anymore.
But when things happen, and they know they need it, the forgotten and unimportant suddenly
Became important and being search for that even google cant catch up with the furiousity of the search.

Life, isnt it?
Haha.
Whatever bunny.
As long as they are happy

Sleepy.
Join me to bed.
I keep u warm from the coldness..
I get warm up from da cold too.
Both benefits.
Heheheh.
*wink*
..Zzz..

For information

I may change my hp no. Soon.
I may not get through most to give u my new number.
Forgive me if that happen.
But i will try my best to inform most of you. :)

Anyway, i been spending hours repairing my pc.
I just dunnoe why.
Some fxxxing corrupted hard drive.
Dammit!
Im resting now...

I guess, i have to start using my backup pc for the moment.
Dammit!
Ish

Freedom

Heheh.
I'm in da bus.
Going back home.
Nothing to do, i update my blog.
Haha..
Later evening change,
Going out for a movie..
Cant wait.
I want to have fun.
Relieve me from being stress and terperuk dlm camp mcm monyet dlm kandang..
Hahaha...

Kay.
Reaching dover mrt.
Gotta go!
Update later nite...
Cheerios!

Burn MTK

I end this Feeling for You, Tonight

I can't believe i am saying this again..
Yes yes.
This goes on and on.
Without ending..

The truth is,
I Love You..
Still...
I know..
Weird if u want to say that to me.
Damn.
Why..

But, we did talk before.
We go our own way,
but, we don't lose contact.
Probably become friends.
Yup.

I somehow, agree to that..
'Friends' we call it.

But. A big But.
I am not into the way how you want us to be.
You call it friends, but to me... I have different views.
Different perspective.
I simply..
Just say, I can't work the way you want it to be.
Your style is different.
Somehow, to me its questionable.
The way you treat me as a friend is different from the way i treat you as a friend.
I didn't meant everyday talk to me or whatever.
But..
That will be explain later in my post.
Why don't u just say , i am just a stranger to u.

I am more into direct approach but
for me, my opinion,
your way is different.
LAid back? I dont know how to describe your style of treating me as a friend.
Just say, Its your way, your Style.

I can't lah sia.
Cannot.
ish..
Different.

When we want us to be friends, I seems to...
I don't know...
It won't work for me.
Your style..
Questionable...
WHY AM I REPEATING MYSELF?

In short, i just say, your way and my way of regarding between us is different.
I know you are busy with your work, studies, projects and stuffs.
I gone through that somehow.
But, ignoring calls, msg, not even a short and simple message that u get back to me later or what.
sometimes something important coming up, i just simply told myself to forget it.
Its not that i everyday kacau u wat.
Once a while, i message or call you.
When that day u say i 'sombong', i was like 'Huh?'.

To me, kay.
To me.
My opinion and your opinion may not be the same.
So i say, To me..

When i diam diam senyap menghilang, u tanye.
Tapi.
Bile i kekadang message u or call tanye khabar, u lak tak melayan.
So i am having lots of questions in my head what the hell is going on.
I know he is there for you most of the time.
But...
Questionable...

Put that aside.
That is beyond the point.

Ya.
We are just 'The Past'
But, gosh your way of dealing things is ...
Not my Style.

There..
See..
It don't work for me..
Not my style of dealing things like how you do.

I got no other choice but put up this post.
I know you will read it somehow.
Coz i assume, you wont either reply or read my message or calls or even my emails.
This is just my assumptions.
May not be truth.
Assumptions.
But still i got no choice before i go cuckoo and talk cock with you.

I got lot of words to say in the first place.
But i think there is no point of putting it here..
I may jumble up my words.
Coz right now,
the only think i want now is
WE just let Our Past be a PAST.
Our Past.
Our Memories.
Our Love.
Our Togetherness.
Our Friendship
Our Closeness between US
LEt us put this in our Heart, Sealed Somewhere Special.
Seriously, LEt us End here.

Discussion point we have made before.
Let just say I can't be friends with you while we go with our things and maybe one day, things may get better and we may think we are ready.

No.

I can't follow up your style.
It doesnt work for me.
We ARE Different.

Forgive me.
But I know,
He is There for You.
I will not be worried.

This is hard for me.
Maybe its hard for you too.
MAybe its not.
[I dont know coz u know urself u like to keep thins only to yourself so i dont know. =) ]
You are my first true love.
I learnt a lot with you.
I know you do too.
This is difficult for me coz although all those stupid things we did to each other, somehow i can't stop loving you.
You are Just Special.
Now i know why all those guys- the so called 'friends' can't just stop disturbing you, disturbing us.
Its something within you that is so mysteriously special.
Unexplainable.

But tonight,
better still this early morning,
LEt it be the PAST.


This handmade rose i made, is for you.
White Rose.

Justify Pure.
That is You.

You are PURE.

Take care always.
I love you.
LEt it be our memories together.


We MAY hear each other again somehow somewhere some place sometime.

I'm out.

This is the Man you used to love,
stating his last statement about you,
ends tonight.

I won't say i promise,
cuz promises are meant to be broken.
I ENSURE you this.
And I meant it.

Ends tonight.


Burn MTK


You will be forever in my memory.

The Real Truth Needed Tonight

I think,
This is the most craziest thing i have ever said tonight within my whole life.

Why i keep thinking bout you?
Are u thinking bout me?
Cannot be.

Are we denying that we still love each other?
This is ridiculous.

Kat luar sane, ade ramai, tapi aku teringat2 kau.
Kenape?
Kau pikir sal aku ke?

Aku mau kebenaran.

Do u still love and want me to be there for you?
Tell me the truth.
I want the truth.
I am tired with our games we play each other.
Hish.

Burn MTK



You are more than a memory.
More like a tatoo.
When i try to remove, you never disappear completely.
A scar is left behind.
Marking of u is still stuck on me.

You Stole My Heart

ish.
I go gila..

Weird..
Appearing in my mind.
Constantly.

I wanna be free like how i am now.
But, ...
weird..
wat is the message told to me the other day?
that dream.......

Nah..
Just a dream..
Weird..

hish.



You are more than a memory
More like a tatoo

No one knows that i'm into you

Great fun yesterday till wee eaarly in the morning. Wont elaborate much. Private knowledge.
Cheh..
Quite exhausting today.
And hungry.
Hoho.

Have fun out there!
Bored?
Go play far2 with toy.
Hahaha..

Happy surfin!

I'm LATE

I gotta go!!
Update later...
Chao
...

ZOOM
cheh.. why got sound sia?

Weird

Sometimes, what we really want in life, we don't usually get.
But, if we are persistence,
and keep doing what is needed to do, one fine day, that dream will be achieved.
And we will get what we want.

But some things are not the same.

Is it wrong being friends with someone you are interested in being friends with?
The person interest you that you want to get to know more about the person and be friend with him or her.
Why?
Maybe some special qualities the person has that interest u to get to know more about the person.
You feel honour to get to know the person.

But sometimes, sparks ignite the wrong way.
As if they think that, when we want to know more about them,
we wanted them to be our girlfriend/boyfriend.
A: 'Hey. You are interesting. Care we get to know more about each other?'
B: Woa! no no. I don't want to be your boyfriend/girlfriend. Shoo!
A: Err.. Excuse me? ARe u ok? You are a wonderful person. But now, I think you are cuckoo. Dang. Too bad.

As if, when we want to get to know more about the friend, we are like saying,
'HEy! Care that we get to know more bout each other? LEts go to a room. We can explore'
As if,
'Hey. I want to touch you. CAre we be friends?'
OR,
'Hey. You look tasty. I wanna taste you. U can taste me too. LEts be friends!'

Why so paranoid?

(After some time of talking with the person, laughing together joking together)
A:Hey! U are funny. Nice talking to you. What's your name?
B: Err.. Ok.. But, i don't want to be your girlfriend/boyfriend.

(Grab the neck. slap right and left. Wake her/him up)

A: Who the hell wanted to be your boyfriend/girlfriend you prick. Just get to know more about each other. Dang. Siao! (walk off).



OR in another case:

A: Get to know more about each other, friend. I'm Bobo/Bochie. What do they call you?
B: Err.. You are my friend's boyfriend/girlfriend. I can't be friends with you.
A: (Look at him/her with weird look) Thinking: I should be doing what i wanted to do before.

The next time they met.

B: Hey. Hi guys! (Shake hands with everyone, except A who gave B the 'Do i know you?' look)
B: Are u ok? Why are you ignoring me?
A: (giving the cold stare, silently saying) You want it so much BOZO. I'm just a stranger.

B: (sitting with the group, asking everyone what they want for a drink) Okay. What bout u Bobo/Bochie?
A:(just giving the cold stare) Huh? Siao ah?! Who u talking to?
(looking around) U ok not? Er.. I think your eyesight, cross-sighted. Issit? haiyo.

haha..
talking cock already.

Come on. Being friends isint wrong.
Doesnt meant that we want that person, we want to touch that person, we want to explore that person, that we be a friend with the person.
Just a friend.

Whatever. Some are paranoid.
Don't lose anything anyway.

'No no. I cant be your friend because you are someone's else.'

Siao ah. So?
NOt willing, its okay.
Just say so earlier.
Long story long story for what.
People think different bout that person already.
As if, 'Hey. I want to be your boyfriend/girlfriend. I want i want i want!'

Haiyo.
We got life also.


Weird World.
Paranoid.



Happy Surfing!
Burn MTK









You don't really know me.
And there you go thinking the way you think about me.
You are totally wrong.
Prove me otherwise, I respect you.

French fries so nice

Haha.
What a meal.
Great dinner.
Long time never ate western food. Haha.
..

Exhausting day.
Sleep like can never wake up.
Dang.
My bros bdae is comin soon.
Ooo.
Insya'allah tomorrow i'll be back.
What to get for them?
Precisely!
Its the thoughts that counts anyway. My mum n them, birthday dates are so close together. Merely less than 10days apart. Haha.
Me?
Fly so far out. My mum's preordered bdae present from italy has not yet come. Will come soon.
Yer rite.
From italy...
Haha..

I better get going..
Lot of work to do.
Mi love u all.
Mi out.
Respect.
Adios!

Happy surfing!
Burn MTK


Eres Bella.

3 January 2009

According to the Convention of PEace and Harmony of East Side Singapore,
initiation of truce has been complied between two parties.
Peace no war!

Adios

Happy Surfing!
Burn

1 January 2008

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