A game?

Never in my life, i let go this way before with the ones i'm with. This is my first time n i cannot take it anymore.
And, your sensitive nature is killing people that loves u.
You feel me?

We did left each other for good. I admit i didnt gave her the care and concern the few months b4 we went our ways. But should i, if what i get is no sincerity from u?
If you feel we were a waste of time, tell me earlier. Shouldnt be wasting time on u in the first place.
For fuck i stay with you. For fuck i push away those who wanted to be with me. Coz y? I was with u. I loved u.
But what do i get? Ha!
Love is oh so blind.
I was blind. Never see things that happened in my eyes. Visions. Dreams. But i didnt care. Why? I loved u. Dang. So blind. Pity. I still stay with you. Give it a chance, i keep telling myself,to show what u are to me. Everyday i keep telling myself. Why? I know what u are facing in life. I try to be ther, to show u love to my best capable abilities. What u need. But...

I dont care bout anything. I am not fussy. I just want 'sincerity'. Never see what i wanted from u. Things Keep happening, and i keep cool with it.
Needless to say, i got tired of staying true to you.
Yes. U keep saying bout me, padahal padahal.
Should i tell u their freaking names? I can say a few out of the group.
A mat.I dunnoe what the freak his name is. With the topi. Fine, we were young then. Den, 'delta foxtrot'. D.F. . U know who. We broke up once bcoz of him. Den another one. Daniel if i'm not wrong.
Blah blah.cut story short.den syafiq.
Mmg.
Nak jaga u mmg susah. Bnyk admirers. But do i mind u being friends with them?
I dont mind. But i care. As long as you are friends with them.
Have i ever stop you from meeting them wen u wanted to?
No. But at least tell me why.

I feel that day by day 'kindness' taken advantage of. I didnt want to be power control to the one i love.
I am flexible. You love me, i love you more.
Now i understand why some being power control. Dun blame them.
You should be with those kinds.

Didnt we initiate our 'communicating session'? Share problems we face btwn us.
You should tell earlier if u dun want to be with me. Isint it simple?
I just go instead of stay.
But we stay. Kay fine with it.

My neighbour. Did i ever go for her?
I didnt. I reject. Still u...
My lover.
I left her. Didnt u remember those words i wrote in my book? It was her.
But, i left, to be with you..
And My adik angkat.
She is my adik angkat godammit. No more no less. You need me to rip open my chest
And look inside 4 truth??
I lebih rela go to kakak dier dari dier mind u.
Even my friend i went out with. I even let u meet up with her, spend time together. Why? To show u, she n myself are friends. I and u are still together.
Your side? I want to know ur friends, never had the chance. Alasans. Perempuan takpe jugak. I paham. Ni lelaki i nak kenal. Is there something hidden from me?
I didnt need to say this again. When i love someone, i meant it. No joke. I guess, u still dont know me yet.

I understand something. What is the point of staying to one when one are not sincere to be with you? That August, i realise i can get to know more bout the ones i've known.
Why i nvr did it in the first place?
Tell u tis : love is blind i stayed with u. But, i still reject her again. She like me. Damn. I hurt her and i feel like an arsehole. Not only my neighbour. A few nice people i known along the way, i hurt them. Why? I never believe females are to treated kindly/fairly. Is there a point?

For 6 months. Thats wat i believe. And i want to apologise to them. I left my brains and my mind in my underwear. They wander around.
Sincerely i am sorry.
I never intend to hurt u friends who been nice to me. Damn. I feel like fuck.
Also, i do want to have u back in my life. Sincerly willing to tat times. Man. That was stupid.

Come 2009.
I woke up.i shouldnt be treating girls that way. Although its fun, damn tat wasnt nice. I turn back where i came from. Being what i am now.

For 6 months i face all that. There is no point being sober. I left you for good, its better to be that way than regretting. I left u for a reason, and i stick to it.
And i know,
U change for the better.
So do i. I am no angel either.
That is great for you and him. Treasure him well my dear. . .

Damn.
I feel i am wasting my time typing all these.
But what the heck.
Someone sent a message.
Dont waste time angry2.
Here goes my precision reply.

Morning coming up.
She's waking up soon. Hmm.
Lets be precise.
THEY are waking up soon.
Cbxx Abu/ Sgt Abs /
Abg Burn watever u know me as. Haha!

I aint attach to anybody.
So? Shut up. =)
I just make friends.

When i wanna know you, i seriously wanna know more bout you. Coz y?
Every each individual have their unique characteristics. I feel like its an honour knowing more bout you.
Unless, if i am with someone special. That will be a different chapter btwn her and me. That will be beautiful.
Life is Great isint it?

One thing. Oh yea.

Thank you, syafiq.
Although, i realised after the breakup, you are actually just one mother fucking young man i.e 14, who wanna kissed my darling of my life (and u did) and you want her so much, whom is older than you, i forgave u.
Why? Although i feel like its stupid, you helped me.
Life is Great, isnt it?
Find a girl
Chow boy, if you want one so much. Not with ones who already have someone like wat u did to me,let me remind you.

And those fuckers who been trying to break up my relationship before(including a girl who known as diana), Thank you All.
Except for u D.Faris.
You apologise before to me, i accepted.
Take two hands to clap... Life is great.
I forgave u all.
Touch my heart
And go away.
=)

P.s. You can hate. You can despise me. I dont care. I know ive been an arsehole after our breakup.u will know why.
But i will never hate u. Nor will i despise you. I believe everyone has their unique ways. You are a special someone i known in my life. Thank you.
3 years 6 months being with you, i will never forget.
4 years knowing u, i will remember.
Its painful to be seperated, but its for the benefit for me and you, isint it. 42 months of us, i'll treasure the moments...


tis is not bout a game.
Its not my game.
If u think it its, let just say its a game u created and played with.
I'm just finishing it.

I better go now.
Wanna talk with my darlings..
Hahaha.
Darlings kepe..
Chak tng tng...


P.s.s. What video message is it bou? Just scroll down and listen...