Discovery

Its a pity, u noe..
For wat we all went through..
To suddenly end like tat.

No doubt,
Sometimes do think of you wenever it is silent hours.
How could we forget those magical moments...

No doubt,
Making up came to mind before.
It was my fault too we seem to be distant.

Like they say, its true.
U never see or unable to read btwn the lines what is happening till both aint together no more. By then, they know...
Pity...

Its true too, wen the longer u are with someone, the more comfortable u are with him/her, u grew more lax on the way u treat him/her.
Meaning, those-how do i say it?- 'babyish?' character we have in each of us pops in.
We show tantrum. We show bullshit. Just for the moment of it.

Its true too.
It is beautiful and fun wen u just get to know someone. But wen stick together, the fun, the joy, the surprise dissipitated..
U know.

I dont knowbout her.
But to me, for her is different.
I meant, we have went through a lot.
We have those magical beautiful moments. Just want more of her, ya know, like.. Drugs..
Things suddenly changes bcoz of unforeseen circumstances. It is a pity, i never show to her.

No doubt.
If there is a chance,
I would love to be by her side, hold onto her hands,look into those beautiful
Eyes, and
Speak out the truth..
Love to provide what she wants.
What she need,
In her life,
Like how it is useD to be.
To learn past mistakes,focus, and just go on with a renewed life With Her.

After wat we fight off. After wat we build.
After wat we face, together...
Things never go like how it should be.
The sacrifices we have no choice but to give, for the country, only US, men, understand. Women dont. unless she is ur own mum.
Time sacrifices. . .
Pity.

That is Life.

Wandering minds..
Too much time for that.

For now, i'm just dating..
Getting to know more new friends.
=)

Will i finally decide to accept Her as the One to share my life with?
Ngeheh.
Hold on.
No rush.
well..she was there for me during those times i was... not thinking right.
although she doesnt knows it, she make me think not to be so 'washed up' by the past.
i make her happy..
she make me happy happy..
both happy happy happy.


..
i think i'm in love...
*pinggan mangkok kuali semua jatuh*
ahahaha...
tsk .. merapek lah aku..

not now..
After my ORd, soon, maybe?
Insya'allah. =D
I'll have more time then.
Not one to be repeating mistakes i did before.
I know wat i've done.
Yes, i may do some mistakes.
But, thinking bout wat i've done before to the one i used to love, hearing her sob, watching her eyes with those tears.
I can't take tat again.
Never. It hurts to see someone u love, hurts.



Ord-ing soon in less than 3 months.
Insya!allah!
=D
I will be back. . .
Dub.. Dub..
Dub.. Dub..


~Ashton Blake~