I end this Feeling for You, Tonight

I can't believe i am saying this again..
Yes yes.
This goes on and on.
Without ending..

The truth is,
I Love You..
Still...
I know..
Weird if u want to say that to me.
Damn.
Why..

But, we did talk before.
We go our own way,
but, we don't lose contact.
Probably become friends.
Yup.

I somehow, agree to that..
'Friends' we call it.

But. A big But.
I am not into the way how you want us to be.
You call it friends, but to me... I have different views.
Different perspective.
I simply..
Just say, I can't work the way you want it to be.
Your style is different.
Somehow, to me its questionable.
The way you treat me as a friend is different from the way i treat you as a friend.
I didn't meant everyday talk to me or whatever.
But..
That will be explain later in my post.
Why don't u just say , i am just a stranger to u.

I am more into direct approach but
for me, my opinion,
your way is different.
LAid back? I dont know how to describe your style of treating me as a friend.
Just say, Its your way, your Style.

I can't lah sia.
Cannot.
ish..
Different.

When we want us to be friends, I seems to...
I don't know...
It won't work for me.
Your style..
Questionable...
WHY AM I REPEATING MYSELF?

In short, i just say, your way and my way of regarding between us is different.
I know you are busy with your work, studies, projects and stuffs.
I gone through that somehow.
But, ignoring calls, msg, not even a short and simple message that u get back to me later or what.
sometimes something important coming up, i just simply told myself to forget it.
Its not that i everyday kacau u wat.
Once a while, i message or call you.
When that day u say i 'sombong', i was like 'Huh?'.

To me, kay.
To me.
My opinion and your opinion may not be the same.
So i say, To me..

When i diam diam senyap menghilang, u tanye.
Tapi.
Bile i kekadang message u or call tanye khabar, u lak tak melayan.
So i am having lots of questions in my head what the hell is going on.
I know he is there for you most of the time.
But...
Questionable...

Put that aside.
That is beyond the point.

Ya.
We are just 'The Past'
But, gosh your way of dealing things is ...
Not my Style.

There..
See..
It don't work for me..
Not my style of dealing things like how you do.

I got no other choice but put up this post.
I know you will read it somehow.
Coz i assume, you wont either reply or read my message or calls or even my emails.
This is just my assumptions.
May not be truth.
Assumptions.
But still i got no choice before i go cuckoo and talk cock with you.

I got lot of words to say in the first place.
But i think there is no point of putting it here..
I may jumble up my words.
Coz right now,
the only think i want now is
WE just let Our Past be a PAST.
Our Past.
Our Memories.
Our Love.
Our Togetherness.
Our Friendship
Our Closeness between US
LEt us put this in our Heart, Sealed Somewhere Special.
Seriously, LEt us End here.

Discussion point we have made before.
Let just say I can't be friends with you while we go with our things and maybe one day, things may get better and we may think we are ready.

No.

I can't follow up your style.
It doesnt work for me.
We ARE Different.

Forgive me.
But I know,
He is There for You.
I will not be worried.

This is hard for me.
Maybe its hard for you too.
MAybe its not.
[I dont know coz u know urself u like to keep thins only to yourself so i dont know. =) ]
You are my first true love.
I learnt a lot with you.
I know you do too.
This is difficult for me coz although all those stupid things we did to each other, somehow i can't stop loving you.
You are Just Special.
Now i know why all those guys- the so called 'friends' can't just stop disturbing you, disturbing us.
Its something within you that is so mysteriously special.
Unexplainable.

But tonight,
better still this early morning,
LEt it be the PAST.


This handmade rose i made, is for you.
White Rose.

Justify Pure.
That is You.

You are PURE.

Take care always.
I love you.
LEt it be our memories together.


We MAY hear each other again somehow somewhere some place sometime.

I'm out.

This is the Man you used to love,
stating his last statement about you,
ends tonight.

I won't say i promise,
cuz promises are meant to be broken.
I ENSURE you this.
And I meant it.

Ends tonight.


Burn MTK


You will be forever in my memory.