23 November 2008

My day was great.
haha..
Book out today..
heheh..
Quite tiring after our duties.
Even thought of visiting her who is sick at home, to surprise her
with some small wat they call in malay- buah tangan, for her.
Until the incident just now.

Hmm..
Like i said before, she is very delicate.
delicate and sensitive.
When she is sick, even more super sensitive.
I said before she won't hear me again but somehow when she did call me the other day, the third try she called, i answered.
Bad move.
ok lah. dier sakit kan.
i understand.
just listen to her what she gonna said.

Well.
Somehow something i said made her go what i term as - super tension dramatic low self-esteem.
Gosh..
Poor her.
And there she goes saying i looked down on her.
i dunnoe what is going on her mind.
I hope someone who she love to be with so much can extract that inner thing that is bothering her inside.
It is eating her for goodness sake.

Think to much about her appearance.
Fat, curvy,bozo watever, if u have that nice character, people look on u.
even though u think u are ...watever..
anyway
What so good of looking slim, looking handsome, macho, muscular, beautiful, sexy tapi perangai seseorang itu mcm siak.
Buat ape.
people look down on that particular someone.
Mmg aku perangai.
Aku perangai mcm sial kalau seseorang itu mcm sial kat aku.
Kalau seseorang itu baik kat aku, tau tau jelah.
Sesiape yg knal aku, mereka tahu.

Think bout it.
We see each other grew up.
You grew up into a beautiful lady.
But to think of it, last time was different from now.
Wat drew me to u is your character.
Your ownself.
Not looks.
You as in you yourself.
Character.
Can't compare your looks then and now though.
Now of course la u look better than the last time kan.
And the You i know is gone.
Guys fall for u even the time we were together.
Just be grateful of ur attraction power.
Anyway, just tell urself u are beautiful.
Don't care how u look asalkan kemas, rapi, lawa, dan berpakaian.
And build up ur character.

By the way.
I just feel like talking about this someone.
Baru hari tu aku berbual pasal dier.
Puji puji dier.
Tapi skrng dah tunjuk dier punye lawa.
U disappoint me bro.
U make urself being look down at.
tsk tsk.
Disappointing...

First msg2 aku, lu gua. bla bla.
kay tu tak pasal.
Tuduh aku pulak aku kacau matair dier.
Eh eh..
dah melampau tu.
Pikir aku ni takde kerje lain nak ganggu matair org?
Ingat aku ni takde org lain nak tergila gilakan?
kesian org mcm gitu fikir mcm gitu, kan.
Aku ganggu dier ke dier ganggu aku?
Siape yang call2 aku sampai aku angkat jugak walaupun aku busy?
Dier call ke aku yg call?
Selidik dulu boy sebelum nak tuduh2 sebarangan.
lepas tu msg punye msg tak puas walaupun aku diam je buat cool.
Last yg aku nak ketawa, dier start the move:
'............amcm nk cuba gua ke per?'
Aku ade msg dier aku simpan kalau korang nak tngok.
Cuba ape mangkok? main kuti kuti?
Aku tetap cool.

Tngok aku tak reply,
Dier call, lagi...
waduh..
dier mcm tak puas tu.
tapi kasihan, satu haprak perkataan dier berbual aku tak paham.
Suara lembik sngt.
Static lak tu.
tak paham aku.
aku dngn kwn aku ketawa ketawa mcm org giler kat blkng bas.
Dier getak aku.
Dier nak cari aku.
Ko nak turun kat tmpt aku.
Sblum ko nak sentuh aku, ko pikir dua kali.Lagi bagus pikir tiga,empat kali.
Oh.
Dier pikir dier hidup dlm dunia dier yg takde undang2.
Ha!
LAgipun
Dier pikir aku tak knal dier siape.
Dier pikir aku takde kwn yg knal dier kat skola bsar dier tu?
Dier pikir aku tak tau mane dier keje.
Pukul bape dier balik.
Pukul bape dier pergi.
Waduh.
Ko nak gaduh ngan aku pasal perempuan?
Where's your manhood boy?

Masih budak sekolah.
Nak berbual besar ngan aku.
Fokus kat skola tu.
Fokus kat blaja nursing ko tu.
Jgn nak gertak gertak aku.
Pasal perempuan lak tu.
Dang.
Manhood drop on the floor wriggling my boy.
Bilang gadis ayu sayang kau tu jgn nak cari2 aku in the first place.
Aku yg tercari2 dier?
Mcm aku katakan, selidik dulu sblum nak gertak aku.

Yg aku terpikir lagi, ko ckp dier matair ko.
Tapi dier tak tau lak ko tu matair dier.
Ngigau kamu ni kot.
Takpe.
Skali skale.
aku faham.

lagipun, pekak telinga aku tadi ko asyik tanye aku,
'ko ade matair kan? ko ade matair kan'.
suke hati mak bapak jiran aku aku ade matair ke takde.
please lah eh.
Nak jadi gay partner aku ke tanye2?
Kalo aku gay pun tak ingin ngan org mcm ko.
mcm tadi aku dan kau dah berbual kat telepon,
aku tak nak dngr suara ko lagi berdengung kat kepala otak aku mula dari 23 November 2008.
irritating.

Ape bende si gadis ko bilang ko eh?
Lain aku ckp, lain dier dngr, lain dier bilang ko eh.
Maklumlah, org dah marah, telinga jadi pekak, mata jadi buta, otak tak boleh pikir.
Astagfirullahalazim!

Aku sebagai seorang lelaki,
malu ngan sikap ko.
Memalukan masyarakat lelaki.
PAsal perempuan ko jadi gitu.
Under spell ke pe?
Kesian


ee..
Malu ah lelaki ngan lelaki nak bergaduh pasal perempuan.
hish..
MAlu ah..
MAndi hadas ah.


Mmg tadi dah aku selesaikan.
Cume satu je.
Aku lepas kan kat sini sebab aku tak paham dan tak puas knape dier gertak aku tadi.
Bdn aku panas je sampai skrng.
Tapi cool je.
Pantang larang moyang aku kene gertak tak tentu pasal tanpa bukti.
Lebih baik lepaskan dari buat bende tak senonoh nnt.

One more thing.
You disappoint me girl.
This is the second time.
Ckp ngan kwn lelaki kau tu, makan bynk garam dulu sblum nak gertak2 aku tak tentu pasal.
Tak tau nak berbual secara lelaki kepe.
Aku tak main ah ngan gertakan ni sume.
Kau fikir aku siape?
Kau yg cari aku,
kau bilang lelaki kau tu aku ganggu kau.
Aku mcm nak pakai perkataan jantan aje kat lelaki kau tu.
Selidik dulu ah boy.
Thank you very much.

Slmt mlm to all!

Burn

p.s. Mereka tau siape mereka. Don't ask.
(They know who they are)