18 November 2008

Thank you for being there with me and sharing my life with me. Thank you for everything you did for me.
Thank you for your patient, your understanding, your wonderful smile and laughter that brighten up my day everytime when i feel like i'm going down the drain.
You are a one wonderful girl that share a life with me. I'm grateful with that.
NS changed our life.
I rarely have the time to be with you because of training.

But now, after passing out from training, and having the time ,we weren't not able to spend time like we use to before as we are not like we used to be.

On that 24th July, i know i wasn't straight forward to u. We knew we want to be together, but i want to clear things with you before we ever get together. I do not want things of the past to happen again between the two of us. We know we will face obstacles along the way just like we used to face together for the past 1277 days but i wanna clear things with u again, so that we can go through life together. I guess i wasn't straight forward to u that i wanna talk with you but when we are not able to talk on that day before i book in, i make myself frustrated. I remember you told me that day, there will be some other time to talk. But to me, there is no other time. Since i will not be booking out for the next two weeks after that and i was worried, someone will take you away. I was looking for a better long-lasting relationship with you.I was frustrated with myself for the way i wasn't straight forward to u.
But that is the past now.

You know someone better and I am happy for you.
The only thing i want to see in you is for you to be happy.

I'm grateful for one of your bestfriend, Sakinah.
Thank you for being with there with her.
Thank you for being a bestfriend to her.
Thank you.

For now, I end this post.
We can't be friends for now.
It sucks that everytime when we talk in the phone, we will argue and our hearts will break with sadness.
You do look forward to be in good terms with me.
so do i.
But i don't think it is a good time for us.
Negative thoughts will always be in your mind and mine.
Forgive me for calling or messaging you.
You won't hear from me again starting from today, 18 November 2008.
Maybe when the time is right, we will talk again.

To Mahmud,
I believe you are a better man for her.
I have this feeling that you will take good care of her.
She told me a lot about you.
I hope you won;t be like Fitri soondell.
That feeling i feel when Fitri was with her doesn't exist for you.
I believe you will take good care of her and make her Happy.
She is a very delicate girl, may be sensitive over time but she is very loving.
Believe me.
When she loves someone, she really meant it.
when she hates someone, thats it.
But, take over her heart and she loves you again.
Do take good care of her feelings.
I look upon you.


Siti Nurdurriah.
Take care of yourself and be Happy always.
May we hear each other again...



Sincerely,
Burn

For now, I'm going to get ready.
I think they be waiting for me now.
I gotta go.